Art Poetique [verlaine]

28 October 2006 at 8:13 am (files)

Art Poetique

(french-original version)
De la musique avant toute chose,
Et pour cela prefere l’impair
Plud vague et plus soluble dans l’air,
Sans rien rn lui prdr ou qui pose

Il faut aussi que tu n’ailles point
Choisir tes mots sans quelque mesprise:
Rien de plus cher que la chanson grise
Ou l’indecis au precis se joint

C’est des beaux yeux derriere les voiles,
C’est le grand jour tremblant de midi,
C’est, par un ciel d’automne attiedi,
Le bleu foullis des claires etoiles!

Car nous voulons la Nuance encor,
Pas la Couleur, rien que la nuance!
Oh, la nuance seule fiance
Le reve et reve et la flute au cor!

Fuis du plus loin la Pointe assassine,
L’espirit cruel et le rire impur,
Qui font pleurer les yeux de l’Azur,
Et tout cet ail de basse cuisine!

Prends l’eloquence et tords-lui som cou!
Tu feras bien, en train d’energie,
De rendre un peu la Rime assagie
Si l’on n’y vielle. elle ira jusqu’ou?

O qui dira les torts de la Rime!
Quel enfant sourd ou quel negre fou
Nous a forge ce bijou d’un sou
Qui sonne creux et faux sous la lime?

De la musique encore et tonjours!
Que ton vers soit la chose envolee
Qu’on sent qui fuit d’une ame en allee
Ver d’autres cieux e d’autres amours.

Que ton vers soit la bonne aventure
Eparse au vent crispe du matin
Qui va fleurant la menthe et le thym..
Et tout le reste est litterature.

Art of Poetry

(english- translation)
You must have music first of all,
and for that a rhythm uneven is best,
vague in the air and soluble,
with nothing heavy and nothing at rest.

You must not scorn to do some wrong,
in choosing the words to fill your lines:
nothing more dear than the tipsy song
where the Undefined and Exact combine

It is the veiled and lovely eye,
the full noon quivering with light;
it is, in the cool of an autumn sky,
the blue confusion of stars at night!

Never the color, always the shade,
always the nuance is supreme!
only by shade is the trothal made
between, flute and horn, of dream with dream!

epigram’s an assassin! keep
away from him, fierce Wit, and vicious
laughter that makes the Azure weep,
and from all that garlic of vulgar dishes!

take eloquence and wring his neck!
you would do well, by force and care,
wisely to hold Rhyme in check,
or she’s off- if you don’t watch- God knows where!

Oh, who will tell the wrongs of Rhyme?
what crazy negro or deaf child
made this trinket for a dime,
sounding hollow and false when filed?

let then be music, again and forever!
let your verse be quick-wing’d thing and light–
such as one feels when a new love’s fervor
to other skies wings the soul in flight.

happy-go-lucky, let you lines
disheveled run where the dawn winds lure,
smelling of wild mint, smelling of thyme..
and all the rest is literature.

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taking a lot of test is fun

3 September 2006 at 2:13 pm (Uncategorized)

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[ i’m still waiting for a better day ]

3 September 2006 at 3:49 am (Uncategorized)

’til the end i will be with you. we will go where our dreams come true all the times that we had been thru you will always be my bestfriend.

i’m still waiting for a better day

have you ever wondered
and science “answered” your question?

why is the sky blue? let’s face it. science is a mere network of theories formulated to somehow explain things. to answer life’s question. but is it the real thing? picasso once said that what you imagine is real. scientists have done experiments a thousand times that they forget the point when they wondered about the result. but are they sure that in 1 million experiments the output would be the same?

conclusions are formulated
when the mind has stopped thinking.

are you sure that the reason is the cause of the phenomenon? scientists are people who seeks for answers but never find them. they think that principles are the explanations when in fact it is when they gave up thinking. when they found the “right” words to somehow explain effects. they are just fancy magicians who knows the probability and IMAGINED that the next card would be an ace.

philosophical question are asked
for the sake of making the mind wonder
and not for answering them

how do we meet new people? how do we know if it is love? is it love or infatuation? why do we breathe? why is the rain wet? the simple things in life are the object of wonder. yet we find these things everyday. that is why we take them for granted. we get so used to these things they became a habit.

we would later assume that they would always be there for us. not just things but people. that is why success leaves those who aren’t humble. that is why love leaves the unfaithful. and truth is deprived from those who don’t seek to understand. sometimes we tend to look for the best regretting the fact that the best people are already there for us.

but we often take them for granted and that is why, sadly, some of them leave us.

two heads are better than one.

we also tend to dependent on other people too much. laying our problems to them and forgetting that it is us who was placed in the situation. we also tend to forget that we are only human and we have our limitations. let’s be real, no one is super man. no one could help us in everyway possible. we all have our problems that we need to find solutions. but still, we are here to help each other.

i’m still waiting for a better day

’til the end i will be with you. we will go where our dreams come true all the times that we had been thru you will always be my bestfriend.

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chapter 03. wisdom is earned and could never be learned

30 July 2006 at 11:19 am (Uncategorized)

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chapter02. trying to stand is harder than it looks

25 May 2006 at 2:37 pm (chapters)

when you think you're standing up you'll realize it's hard. that you have to carry yourself. to lift the load. it's not as easy as it looks. especially when you had a bad fall. a really bad fall.

actually masaya naman sa s11. i feel cool kasi nakikiride naman sila at napapawi nila ang lungkot sa iyong mukha. medyo pilyo sila pero mabait naman sila. tapos alam mo ba deep inside sa kanila meron silang mabait na side na pwede mong katukin kahit kailan. masaya ako at naging miyembro ako ng grupong ito. marahil hindi ko sila ipagpapalit sa kahit anong block sa aming kolehiyo. sana ganoon din ang nadarama nila sapagkat ako'y nagagalak tuwing sila'y kasama. 

pero kahit masaya ung block ko. nandito na naman ung depressive instict ko na nagsasasabing hindi ito sapat. hindi ko alam kung bakit ginawa tayong hindi makuntento sa isang bagay. siguro kaya tayo naiiba tayo sa mga hyop. dahil ang hayop masaya na sila na nabubuhay sila samantalang tayo ang buhay wala pa. minsan akala natin nalagpasahan na natin ang mga pagsubok. minsan akala natin wala lang sa ating ang mga bagay bagay. minsan sa sobrang pag aakala natin nalalaman natin na mali tayo. na hindi dapat tayo mag akala. kasi nandito tayo dahil kailangan natin. dahil may gagawin tayo na kailangan natin alamin.

minsan ang pagkadapa natin ang nagbibigay sa tin ng paalala na masyado ng mataas ang tingin natin. na akala natin kaya na nating maglakad nahindi tinitignan ang dinadaanan natin. na akala natin hindi na natin kailangan bumalik pa sa nakaraan. na sa mga ginagawa natin bigla na lang tayo babalik sa ating pinagmulan. na lahat ng bagay may katapusan. na lahat ng bagay hindi laging nandyan. na ang makakapitan mo lang ang sarili mo. na minsan mas magandang mag isa sapagkat hindi mo nadarama ang sakit ng pagkawala. na minsan mas maganda ng masaktan upang maranasan. dahil mas madaling matuto kapag naranasan na. na ang bawat saya may kapalit na luha. na ang bawat pagkatalo may kapalit na pagkapanalo. na lahat ng bagay may oras, panahon, lugar, tao at dahilan. 

 masakit isipin pero minsan nakakaligtaan natin na mahirap lahat ng bagay. walang bagay na kusang darating sapagkat sa isang saglit ay naisip din natin na makuha iyon. minsan nakakaligtaan natin na lahat ng bagay ay ginugusto natin bago natin nakuha. at kung kailan ayaw na natin saka natin nakukuha.

masakit isipin ngunit tao lamang tayo na minsan nakakalimutan na may natatapakan, nakakalimutan at nasasaktan. minsan napakamanhid natin sa mga situasyon, pangyayari at mga pag uusap na nagaganap. minsan nakakaligtaan natin na wala tayong alam sa kalawakan at nanghuhula lang tayo sa mga bagay bagay. minsan masyado nating sinasabi na kaya natin..

ngunit sa bandang huli, nadarapa pa rin. 

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Operation MakeOver

19 May 2006 at 9:18 pm (files)

You don’t try to be what people want you to be. You’re just you.

and i think the only thing i’m good at is being me. now since i’m entering college and i only have 2 days left for this summer vacation i’ll have a list of what i should be and what i shouldn’t be.

i should be..
( ) happily enjoying every minute of my college life
( ) friendly competing in academic ranks
( ) responsible enough to finish my school work
( ) active in school organizations
( ) having fun with my friends highschool and college
( ) single and not looking, i’m sure my knight will come 🙂
( ) playing a sport to keep myself healthy
( ) eating healthy since i need to be fit
( ) socializing with different people
( ) pursuing what i want and what i need to do
( ) update in the everyday society
( ) playing an instrument

i shouldn’t be..
( ) a snob
( ) superior
( ) bragging about my academic past
( ) pa importante
( ) lazy physically and mentally
( ) flirting with guys
( ) maarte
( ) not resilient.. haha
( ) a freaking know it all
( ) a backstabber
( ) insecure
( ) overweight 😛
( ) a loner
( ) depressive
( ) negative thinker
( ) party pooper
( ) judgemental
( ) dishonest

in short if i accomplish all of this. i will be sure to do everything in peace and harmony.. i really what to be better. i’ll try to be. i will be.

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chapter 01. crap. it’s hard to fall

18 May 2006 at 2:58 pm (chapters)

especially when no one’s there to help you but yourself

i’ll start this story by telling who i am. i am a girl behind those dark brown eyes and long brown hair. i can’t stand on my own and i need guidance. i need support. i need love. i am constantly changing. i can’t be what i can’t. although i am versitile, i fail to excell in any. but i want to change. i want to be better. i want. i would.

it hurts to cry when the tears that fall are like acid to your face. it hurts but you continue to cry. it seems that even pain couldn’t heal a wounded heart or a wounded spirit.

i seem to be giving up too much lately. i gave up somethings that i really NEED to give up. but at the same time i gave up a lot of things that made me happy.

like playing drums for example. it seems i have no future beating that rhythm. it did help ease the pain but it’s not good to look at a girl who likes to hit the beat hard. and it’s not put into any use except sunday plays.

i did give up kris. i know it’s hard. it’s been three years since we met. yet i have to stop living in that crappy past. it pulls me lower and lower into my emotional spring. the spring that could drown me if i’m not careful. mom did say i’m a peaceful sea. crystal clear yet deep. deeper than the shadows that are visible. i got to stop pretending there still is something happening. there are absolutely no more feelings just memories. sweet memories i could look back too. with regret. pain. and happiness.

yet eventhough i did give up a lot of things. i would never give up my drive to pursue what i really want to do. like ballroom dancing or playing the guitar. i would never quit tennis anymore since i did give up tae kwon do which is a huge part of me.

i’ll try to do the best i could. it’s hard to fall. but if you start putting your hands on your side for support. cross your legs. turn around so you’ll be facing the ice. kneel and let a foot disperse your weight. then the other. you’ll be sure to stand up.

that’s how i learned how to skate.

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